It's been a while, blogging-wise. I've had to retreat, rewind, re-evaluate myself.
I consciously took a step back from social media for pretty much the whole of 2020. Not a complete hiatus, but I gave very little time for posting, sharing, or hanging around on IG or FB in general. Simply because I did not feel like posting. I've been observing our changing world and myself.
I've been feeling somewhat empty, lost, and at the same time tried very hard (not good*) to rebirth myself by working odd jobs and odd hours the whole of last year while looking for a fulfilling job. In addition to just trying different things and studying too.
Then, not succeeding on the job hunt front and feeling like I've been banging my head to a wall a thousand times. You know, getting too many "Thanx, but no thanx" messages. Doors slammed shut in front of me. Somewhat exhausting & super frustrating.
But, one thing I've learned: things happen FOR us, not to us and often in Wake up and Shake up-style.
It's all about changing one's perspective. Not staying in a victim-mode, but to use and redirect the frustration into something useful.
To accept the situation, feel all the feelings and then moving on. Hence, what can you do to change the situation?
One thing for sure is putting yourself and your health first. Period.
I've looked after myself in a major way (started in 2008, actually), physically, mentally, and spiritually. For me it's DAILY exercise, rest, nutritious food, long walks outdoors, mindfulness practices, studying, reading, pondering, and nurturing those important close relationships.
But, it's time now. Time for Bursting my blister, so to speak, as I've felt a burning desire to act, to bring my voice out in the open, and most importantly, having no expectations of where this will lead to.
I've now dropped pretty much all the 'planning my future'-business: forcing, pushing, controlling*.
I have opened my arms to the Universe to guide me. Whaaat the he**, you may ask. Yezz.
The Universe to guide me, keeping in mind that my job is to ACT when I truly feel the push and true desire. To TRUST and it's bloody hard at times, no sugar coatings here.
My only hope is that someone out there gains something good out of my stories and posts!
Soooo, for the ones that don't know me, hop on to my About- page so you'll get some sort of an idea about me. Or, if you have time, check my IG profile.
Shortly, I'm a self-confessed health nut, an intuitive, a creative, a lifestyle blogger, a life-long learner and, a proud mother of one gorgeous young man (he will be 16 this year).
I'm inspired by healthy living, awareness, spirituality, creativity and, my MAIN goal and purpose of all are helping others to gain clarity & health to enjoy their lives.
About bursting my blister then. Meaning, breaking my silence.
The Year 2020 was certainly very odd and frustrating for me, though I'm not the only one.
In fact, let's be honest (as honesty is my second name)...., I feel that for the last TEN years I've gone through a hell of a school-of-life and spiritual awakening alongside it.
Ups and downs, personal crisis (illness, divorce, losing loved ones), financial struggle. self-growth (as in acknowledging my weak spots, old repeating patterns, and behaviors), tears, anger, sadness, exhaustion, over-working, looking for my purpose, studying, exploring, you name it.
Thank goddess though, I've had good laughs and great times too. Somehow I've always managed to keep my feet on the ground and managed to stay bubbly and vibrant (as my closest friends call me) through all the struggles. That I'm extremely grateful of!
I've always been supported by the universe as Spiritual Guidance has always been strongly present in my life. Call it angels, passed on loved ones, or a higher power guiding me.
And, when I have not been listening, boom, I've been shaken awake by some level of crisis.
Also, the biggest thing on my way has been my EGO and fear.
Yes, there's nothing else stopping us other than US, OURSELVES. Voices in your head such as: 'nobody wants to know', 'what will others think of me?' or 'my story won't matter'. Blaaaah blaaah. Well, the truth is, we are all unique and there's only one me and there's only ONE You on this planet.
We are all supported, but we have not been taught these things. And you know the deal, the western busy-busy-run-run-do-do-society that we have been sucked into. No wonder people cannot TRULY hear themselves. 2020 shook us all up and despite all the challenging things, it needed to happen.
I will repeat: my purpose is to inspire others, have a positive impact on my surroundings, and hold the light for others.
Be it only one, two, or three people. It doesn't matter. I'm here to deliver hope, guidance, good health & spirit, joy, motivation & inspiration. If I don't deliver, I'm not taking the responsibility on this earth to be of service. Also, deep down in my heart, I wouldn't ever feel truly satisfied.
Therefore, from now on, I will start sharing more of my raw and honest self, my life openly with all the stunning and the shite.
I'm here for you.
Just know, whatever you are going through, you will get through it. You are safe and supported.
Just know, that we are addicted to our past behaviors and feeling and it doesn't have to be that way.
You are NOT YOUR FEELINGS AND REACTIONS. You're kinda like a separate entity and YOU CAN change your health, wealth, relationships, etc. Whatever it is you want to change!
So, welcome to my diary.
One step at a time, not only leveling up my game but yours too. Cause WE deserve it. Like those L’Oréal trailers: "cause we're worth it", remember therm? Hehhh.
I'm ready for welcoming a new era, life, career, genuine love, uplifting experiences, heartfelt conversations, ongoing health, and great surprises.
You? Write them down, ponder truly what is it that you want to bring into your life. How do you want to feel? What do you want to experience?
And, start from feeling good NOW. Regardless of your situation. Trust me, at this very moment in time, I'm facing financial challenges so I know it is not easy at times, just to feel good. But TRUST me, the better your emotions and your feelings, the quicker things are starting to turn around for you. We're in this together!
I'm super happy and grateful that you're here and let's get this party started. Thank you, Thank you 2021!!
Yours truly and Mucho luuurve,
Pia
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